Going Far, Getting Nowhere

Ahh... it's been a good day. I woke up late, having gone to bed late, and ate an excellent egg, spinach, ham sandwich with my lovely wife while we watched the latest season of The Big Bang Theory, my current favorite TV show. Seriously guys, it's awesome.
Then I went on a hike up Rock Canyon which allowed me to think about stuff, get things clear again. It's amazing how quickly my view can become cluttered by garbage but going on a walk or hike or ride always clears it up toot sweet. Jealousy is one of my biggest problems right now. It really throws off my thinking and centers me on the wrong things. Gah!
Anyways! Then I came home and we ate rice and ham and each had a big salad which was DELICIOSO!!! Mucho so. Then more TBBT (yeah, that's right. I abbreviated my addiction) and then to writing at which I wrote over 1500 words. YES! Also I've been listening to 80's music lately, specifically The Cure, Depeche Mode, Tears for Fears. Also threw some Death Cab for Cutie, Fleetwood Mac, and The Flaming Lips in there just to get a little variety. I think I'm set for a while with this playlist. At least when I'm not exercising.
When I'm exercising, I like to jam to Pop Goes Punk 3 & 4. Great stuff, all upbeat and screamy the way I like my pop.
Oh yeah! Another thing: I've been trying to get a job as a writer for a magazine or website. I don't have any professional experience but decided to apply anyways. I've only heard back from one website and it was a rejection but at least I heard back! A rejection is always better than nothing. Anyways, pray, meditate, or throw good thoughts my way, depending on what you believe. Thanks!

Sippin' On A Patron Just To Calm My Nerves

If I keep burning bridges at this rate I'm going to be stuck very very soon. On the plus side I'm learning a lot about myself and what I can and can't do. Or maybe it's more accurate to say what I will and won't do. Yeah, that's better. Gonna miss mv and wish I hadn't thrown that away. Oh friggin well.

Writings going well. Wrote 500 last night, 1000 the day before and I got my book back on track. This chapter I'm working on had just gone all Ozzy on me (off the rails... on a crazy train...?) but I was able to pull it back in and I think it's going to turn out quite nice actually.

Also it's nice to learn that I'm not a socially retarded psycho, that some guys are just completes arse holes. Yeah I said it. Arse. A near curse. Whatcha gonna do? Call the ghostbusters on me?!!

And now this blog post has gone all Ozzy so I'm going to sign off. In parting, just remember:

"...keep your boots tight, keep your gun close and die with your mask on if you got to..."

What Heist Were You Watching?

The internet on my phone has not been working for almost a month and I'm going CRAZY! About a year ago I started switching my music listening from CD's and MP3's to streaming. It's a lot cheaper and easier but NOT WHEN YOUR INTERNET DOESN'T WORK!!! Bloody Sprint.

I just wrote almost a thousand words in my book! But that's not that great because I haven't written in weeks. But thank heavens I'm starting again. It's always that first session that's the hardest.

ALSO I'm starting a NEW job on monday. I know I know. Another? Really? Well better believe it baby.

I'm So Heavy In Your Arms

I have a couple job leads I'm actually a bit excited about. Mostly because they're full time. I have two part time jobs but it just seems kinda stressful to be going to two different places when I could just get all my hours in one place. Plus these jobs both pay better than one or both of my current jobs. The only thing that makes me stumble a bit when going for new jobs is that the jobs I currently have are both fall back jobs. They're the jobs you get when all else has failed. So if I quit and go somewhere else and it doesn't work out, where do I go? But I suppose that's part of the danger of life. You can't always have a safety net, no matter how much you try. Blah.

On the writing front, I just wrote AROUND five hundred words. Give or take a solid hundred. Probably take. DON'T JUDGE ME! I had a lot on my plate today! I even worked out even though I have been feeling tired lately and didn't want to! So you can take that judgment where the sun don't shine. Of course I'm referring to under a shade tree.

Sometimes I say crazy stuff that makes total sense in my head but then people tell me I'm crazy. I'm totally not! Trust me, I got this.

I've been thinking about trying to write for a website. I would really enjoy that but I have always stumbled because I feel my writing style is not professional enough. I don't pay a lot of attention to the rules of the English language (see entire history of this blog) and I'm pretty sloppy about stuff because I just want to create and not be constricted sometimes! But then I realized HEY! That's what an editor is for. So I think I'm going to try for that. Thanks to my lovely wife and my father for the encouragement on that front.

This is a site I'm recently dying to see. Not sure where the desire came from but it's growing:

No Ideas Whatsoever...

Today I read a thread of discussion on Facebook that talked about self-publishing vs. traditional publishing. I have been planning on self-publishing up to this point. But after reading over that thread I have become absolutely terrified of it. Well... Not terrified but rather nervous. I am definitely rethinking my path.

Also I am having a hard time mapping my book. Or not having good enough notes. Or not knowing if I should name characters that aren't important. Basically HOW DETAILED SHOULD I BE?! Wish some authors read this blog. Guess I'll have to research instead of just having the answers handed to me. Dang.

A job I had been depending on getting fell through. I will make enough from my two part time jobs to pay bills but thats about it. Nothing really beyond that. Life's a real bugger sometimes.

Speaking of life being not that great, it may surprise you that I have begun trying not to complain so much when I'm talking to people. It's REALLY HARD. My life is in a really not great place right now. We're living with my parents which is great of them but... not ideal. We are falling farther and farther behind on bills until some income comes IN.  And... Wait wait I didn't mean to start complaining. SEE HOW EASY IT IS?!!! Grrr. Anyways. Yeah. Trying not to complain. It could be worse. I could live in a... house full of rats. And cockroaches. So yeah, not so bad. First world problems, eh?

I'm going running tonight. Haven't been for a couple days. I wasn't feeling great on Friday so I skipped that day and then Saturday instead of running I went for a ten mile bike ride. That was great exercise but I miss running so tonight will be good. Whelp. That's all folks.

Stupid picture:

A Mans Gotta Do...

Sorry if you're sick of hearing about my employment status but... I got a second job! So that means two part time and... I'll hopefully hear back from a third by the end of the week. If I get that third one I will quit the other two because it'll pay more than both combined! Hurray.

On the book front, the end of the first draft is in sight! I'm about halfway finished I'm thinking. Taking longer than I thought it would but oh well. What's a guy to do.

Listening to the Dr. Horrible sound track. Great stuff.

Killing Tonight

I have been playing World of Warcraft like a fiend lately. Like a crazy unhealthy amount. I'm guessing it's me subconsciously trying not to think about the possibility of getting fired tomorrow. MAN this job is stressful. Also some money woes (phones shut off, bills piling up) that have been messing with me seriously.

Last night I had a dream about somebody I used to know. It really messed with my head. I have been feeling off all day because of it. Finally I convinced Miri to go up the canyon with me and I was able to unload about it which helped. Plus getting out of the house. Memories... bah.

I am slimming down again, thank heavens. I've been able to run about a mile three times a week and workout twice a week. Not close to what I was doing before the accident but its a start. Getting there.

Finally I just wrote an AWESOME scene in my book. A kidnap/carchase/gunfight/magical showdown. Nice.