What Is That Noise?!

Every time I hear the song Serenade by Schubert I think of an episode of something or other featuring, I think, Donald Duck. It shows him being extremely depressed and the ocean luring him in to kill himself. But at the end he rallies and escapes the ocean. Over the whole thing a narrator comments on the heroes struggle.

Has anyone out there seen or heard of this episode? It's driving me crazy. I can find no reference to it anywhere on the internet.

What You Did In The Dark

Book Update: There is nothing to update!

Ever since I finished the first draft I haven't been able to start rewriting. I have done literally zero work since then on it.

It's a bummer!

Work is going so so. I thought I would do really well at this job but I'm only doing sort of okay. And I feel like I'm constantly on the verge of getting fired, which can be very stressful. But such is life, eh? It's strange because I feel like the universe dropped this job in my lap and now it feels like the universe is trying to get me fired. WTF UNIVERSE?!! Jk, universe, jk. I only kid.

What do you mean I have to work hard to keep my job?

The End

Today at 9:54 p.m. I finished my first book. It feels amazing yet still daunting. I have tons of editing and rewriting to do before it's ready to be sent in for publishing but it's such a milestone and I've gotten such a sense of accomplishment from it. I haven't accomplished much in my life. This is nice.

Like A Polaroid

I Just got back from an overall pretty great vacation to see some of my friends get married. . Lots of sleep was not had, lots of food and drink was consumed (probably to much of both) and many great memories were made. I also made a lot of great realizations, some of which are portrayed below.

1-Time is the most precious resource. Not gold or water or even children. Time.

2-Dancing is pretty fun. I'm not great and I probably looked like a whale flailing around in a bad fitting suit but such is life. I just need a little liquid courage and I'm good to go!

3-It's ridiculous to not do something just because of what someone else might think!

4-I really like the acoustic cover of Hey Ya by Matt Weddle.

5-I need to start taking some kind of medication or something and probably go into therapy. I have a lot of issues that I should probably take care of before I have kids. Yeah.

6-I'm not great at Poker and I really don't care that much.

And a lot more probably but it is now lost in a haze of almost memories.

Where The Ragged People Go

I'm almost done with my book! I will probably finish today which I'm hoping I do because I haven't been doing well with work AND writing.

If you want to hear some Mumford and Sons, here is a great cover they did of Simon and Garfunkels song The Boxer

It Would Take A Whole Lot Of Medication

I'm so excited right now!

I just landed a job that is, at least thus far, AWESOME. It's basically what I've been doing for the past two years but WAY EASIER AND BETTER PAY! YESSSS!!!

And second reason I'm so excited...

I'M ALMOST DONE WITH MY FIRST NOVEL!!!!!!!

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... sorry. Excitement caused me to lose control of my typing and, well, it weren't purdy.

AAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

For the first time in a long time, things are looking up.

AND I'm going to Texas in about 2 weeks for my friends' (two of my good friends are getting married, not sure if this is the proper punctuation for that event) wedding. I've really missed all my Texas homies and fambily (yes I purposely misspelled) and it will be good to see them again. But also kinda hard. But such is life.

Now I'm bummed... CURSES.

Wait, no I just needed to think about the awesome stuff again and HOOORAAAYYY!!!

On a COMPLETELY different note, a song from Les Mis came on my iPod (that's hard figuring out the correct capitalization!) called "Empty Chairs at Empty Tables" and I repeated it like 14 times. Yeah, bloody good song.

probably one of the saddest scenes ever

Anyways... 

This post turned out to be way longer than I thought it was going to be. Sorry dudes. Just kidding. You're reading this for free so stop complaining. This is 100% free content. 

I'm listening to a song now by Mumford and Sons and guess what: Mumford and Sons is the best. Just in case you were wondering.

Life, Interupted

For the past couple of months I have been dealing with a painful medical condition. I won't get in to details but it was quite scary for about a week and I'm pretty much constant pain. I'm on antibiotics right now and I'm trying some natural stuff as well but it doesn't seem to be happening. This has in turn affected my ability to go to work in the sense that I can't motivate myself to do it when I'm physically and emotionally tired from dealing with the constant pain and discomfort and the worry of it not going away, just getting worse.

And then add on top of that the fact that I'm not a huge fan of my current job anyways, well you can understand how I'm having a rough time of it.

On the plus side I am almost done with the first draft of my book! I have probably a couple months left if I stick to my goals. Pretty excited to finally finish. I know it's only the beginning of a long process but it will be the first major goal I've achieved in a long time. Yeah, I'm pretty depressing. LOL. But not really.

Oh, and on the major plus side! Fall Out Boy, one of my favorite bands, is releasing a new album in May! What?!

hooray!

I'm beginning to change the way I view God and religion. I grew up in an extremely conservative household and culture and I've begun to break out of that viewpoint to truths I couldn't see or accept before this point. 

It's a little scary because my upbringing taught me that thinking outside of their prescribed box brought damnation and eternal torment so I'm understandably a little nervous about thinking other things than what I've been fed my whole life but it's also liberating to be able to believe spiritually that don't conflict with my moral, political, and social beliefs. Whew!

beautiful

I'm beginning to understand that I should question things, not just accept things blindly. That's how evil is allowed to flourish.