Like A Polaroid

I Just got back from an overall pretty great vacation to see some of my friends get married. . Lots of sleep was not had, lots of food and drink was consumed (probably to much of both) and many great memories were made. I also made a lot of great realizations, some of which are portrayed below.

1-Time is the most precious resource. Not gold or water or even children. Time.

2-Dancing is pretty fun. I'm not great and I probably looked like a whale flailing around in a bad fitting suit but such is life. I just need a little liquid courage and I'm good to go!

3-It's ridiculous to not do something just because of what someone else might think!

4-I really like the acoustic cover of Hey Ya by Matt Weddle.

5-I need to start taking some kind of medication or something and probably go into therapy. I have a lot of issues that I should probably take care of before I have kids. Yeah.

6-I'm not great at Poker and I really don't care that much.

And a lot more probably but it is now lost in a haze of almost memories.

Where The Ragged People Go

I'm almost done with my book! I will probably finish today which I'm hoping I do because I haven't been doing well with work AND writing.

If you want to hear some Mumford and Sons, here is a great cover they did of Simon and Garfunkels song The Boxer

It Would Take A Whole Lot Of Medication

I'm so excited right now!

I just landed a job that is, at least thus far, AWESOME. It's basically what I've been doing for the past two years but WAY EASIER AND BETTER PAY! YESSSS!!!

And second reason I'm so excited...

I'M ALMOST DONE WITH MY FIRST NOVEL!!!!!!!

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... sorry. Excitement caused me to lose control of my typing and, well, it weren't purdy.

AAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

For the first time in a long time, things are looking up.

AND I'm going to Texas in about 2 weeks for my friends' (two of my good friends are getting married, not sure if this is the proper punctuation for that event) wedding. I've really missed all my Texas homies and fambily (yes I purposely misspelled) and it will be good to see them again. But also kinda hard. But such is life.

Now I'm bummed... CURSES.

Wait, no I just needed to think about the awesome stuff again and HOOORAAAYYY!!!

On a COMPLETELY different note, a song from Les Mis came on my iPod (that's hard figuring out the correct capitalization!) called "Empty Chairs at Empty Tables" and I repeated it like 14 times. Yeah, bloody good song.

probably one of the saddest scenes ever

Anyways... 

This post turned out to be way longer than I thought it was going to be. Sorry dudes. Just kidding. You're reading this for free so stop complaining. This is 100% free content. 

I'm listening to a song now by Mumford and Sons and guess what: Mumford and Sons is the best. Just in case you were wondering.

Life, Interupted

For the past couple of months I have been dealing with a painful medical condition. I won't get in to details but it was quite scary for about a week and I'm pretty much constant pain. I'm on antibiotics right now and I'm trying some natural stuff as well but it doesn't seem to be happening. This has in turn affected my ability to go to work in the sense that I can't motivate myself to do it when I'm physically and emotionally tired from dealing with the constant pain and discomfort and the worry of it not going away, just getting worse.

And then add on top of that the fact that I'm not a huge fan of my current job anyways, well you can understand how I'm having a rough time of it.

On the plus side I am almost done with the first draft of my book! I have probably a couple months left if I stick to my goals. Pretty excited to finally finish. I know it's only the beginning of a long process but it will be the first major goal I've achieved in a long time. Yeah, I'm pretty depressing. LOL. But not really.

Oh, and on the major plus side! Fall Out Boy, one of my favorite bands, is releasing a new album in May! What?!

hooray!

I'm beginning to change the way I view God and religion. I grew up in an extremely conservative household and culture and I've begun to break out of that viewpoint to truths I couldn't see or accept before this point. 

It's a little scary because my upbringing taught me that thinking outside of their prescribed box brought damnation and eternal torment so I'm understandably a little nervous about thinking other things than what I've been fed my whole life but it's also liberating to be able to believe spiritually that don't conflict with my moral, political, and social beliefs. Whew!

beautiful

I'm beginning to understand that I should question things, not just accept things blindly. That's how evil is allowed to flourish. 

Never Guitars In July

It's the last day of January tomorrow. Crazy stuff. I've been able to stay on top of writing this month and in fact I'm actually ahead of my monthly goal and will probably end January about 2500 words on top. YAY!

Work is going... okay. It's definitely work but my schedule changed to mornings M-F so that definitely helps but getting up early is really kicking my butt.

Yeah, yeah!

You're Never Going To Believe This!

Staying positive is rough sometimes. I do well one day but then it's like... why do I have to be positive again?!

Totally, You Guys

Dear God.

Do I really need another dose of humility? Have I not been HUMILIATED enough times in my life? I suppose by the measure of today that I have not. Well... I suppose I should stop expecting things to go well ALL the time in my life, eh? Or, like, ever?

Sincerely, Me.

Anyways... as you can probably tell from the above post, things could be better in my life. And yes, damn it, I know things could be worse. I've lived those worse times, I freaking know they exist.  But honestly things could be going a lot better for me. And yet at the same time it begs the question: What did I honestly expect from MY life?

They say God created everybody and gave them their flaws. I would like to take this time to thank God for creating me the way I am. Yes in my design was created, by way of nature AND nurture, the most successful and happy possible person to live in this world God created the rules for. Oh wait, the opposite of that. Yeah.

Thanks. I mean that from the bottom of my heart. Really.

P.S. Sorry for the self pitying post. Sometimes all this bitterness builds up inside me and it's hard not to vent it.